2006-09-12 - 9:05 a.m.
Disappointment
There's some discussion on the Merry Rose list about whether people should be told whether a candidate is going to be elevated or not, prompted by Elspet's elevation at Coronation (hooray for her!). I think that the Crown is going to do what the Crown is going to do; one rolls with the punches. (And I'm *really* not sure that writing a letter in a public forum was the correct way to discuss it; I thought that was actually quite discourteous.) However, I'm still quite upset over missing it (it was a question of timing - whether to go to Coronation, or take the first chance to see my apprentice in months; since I didn't know what was going on, I chose to see my apprentice), and I've managed somewhat to pin down why. Not just because I missed it, but because people who are close to me were told, and no-one considered my presence at the ceremony important enough to tell me. I have to admit it, that hurts. That really hurts. Sorry, guys, but it does. But it's *okay*. There were just some reasons I would really have liked to have been there: As one of the first people to get to know her in the SCA, I would have liked the chance to speak for her. If Aldise hadn't grabbed her, I would have taken her as *my* apprentice (I wanted her to find her feet a little first, and was beaten to the punch). Elspet and I have talked constantly about all sorts of things over the time we have known each other, and I hoped that if I couldn't be her peer, I could at least be a supporter and mentor. *She* is *special* to me, and I feel very sad that I was not given the chance to decide whether I could make it to her elevation or not. I'm still very sad about this, but I'm recovering. ...somewhat. *grump* ...and why did no-one think to ask whether *I* would have done her scroll? I would have, no matter how short the timeline. Poop.
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